HAIRSPRAY : the sequel

I finally made the appointment to get my hair done. I sent in the appointmet online and it looked ridiculous: Bangs, Full Foil, Base Color, and Shampoo, Cut, & Style. It'll be about $200 to get the hair I want. Atlantic Studios is thee hair salon, it's the only place I'll get my hair done, and I will only request Chelsea, she's done my hair for about 8 years if not more, she knows my hair best. I have long hair and it's super duper thick, it's always funny whenever I would get a new stylist, their reactions are all the same when they unravel my hair and analyze it. They all have "what the fuck" looks, it's hilarious, but I laugh to myself, there are two kinds of people you never want to annoy or infuriate: people who have your hair and people who have your food. I love having Black hair, but I wanted to have a complicated look, I used to always just have base color. It's Black now, but I decided to dye my hair (all over = base color) a rich, deep brown and then I'm going to have my bangs cut straight across and thick.

Then I'm going to have platinum blonde streaks on the underside and purple streaks on the underside. And I'm going to have some purple in my bangs...maybe, IDK, I might just leave the bangs brown.

I might have a few purple streaks in my bangs, but it would be way fewer than the picture above.

The bangs (color wise) would be more like this, a little less chunky though and ofcourse more purple, like the other picture.

I always see two-toned hair, I'm going to have multi-toned.

when i get my check

i'm getting this shirt.... in red.

Where to Buy the shirt

tudors

When The Tudors first came out, I was like oh shit this looks so awesome, but then I watched it and I was like, eh and didn't watch an episode since. I was scanning Showtime on demand and I saw The Tudors on there, all 3 seasons. So I decided to watch all of them. I'm on episode 4 in season 1, yeah Henry is hot, but it's not very realistic considering all this shit didn't happen to the real Henry til he was old and sagging..but yeah, I don't think a sagging, old man with a white beard fucking all these women would have made the ratings go up either..I don't think there would have even been a season 3. I like the show so far except for when I notice little details that irk me. I've pretty much made a routine out of it, I wait til everyone's asleep or in different rooms and then play one or two episodes every night, because I'm the only one that wants to watch it.

fusm

Sooo I am in dire need of finding an apartment far far away. I set a goal for myself, I need to have a job and $3,000 saved up so I can move into my own apartment by November of this year.

I'M TIRED OF THIS SHITTTTT!!!!!

FUSM.

w h e e e e w

panic attack.

transfer

I'm thinking about colleges more. I used to have UCSC at the top of my list, but IDK... I think UC Santa Barbara is at the top of the list for me. So I have them in order:

1. University of California Santa Barbara
2. University of California San Diego
3. University of California Santa Cruz

I also learned that if I went to Evergreen State, I wouldn't be allowed to transfer my credits of my community college. (But if CC fails then I can just pack my shit, become a resident of Washington, and then apply there... lol. That's my "runaway plan", just incase.) And ehh to Berkeley and University of Seattle is religiously affiliated, no thanks.

Looks like I'm going to be stuck in California for a good 5-7 years...

boo hiss..

my idol

Elizabeth I

Anne Boleyn

Elizabeth Bathory

gay rights

Model: Marilyn Sanchez
I was assigned a project to promote anything through photography. I decided on make-up; with this project I showed that you can even show your pro-gay rights belief through eyeshadow...and even more proving my point, added an actual engagement ring on her ring finger.


Everything was done with natural (non-studio) elements...I used a white sheet and either the sunlight or a bedroom light. And thats it, ofcourse there's a camera (Canon Rebel). The photo of the makeup and filmstrip, the filmstrip was fun to do. Simple: shoot, print, shoot again.

sickly sweet

im sick. and im excited because i'm starting to plan what i'm going to sell. it sucks that i have school tomorrow, but eh. and i'm going to be coughing every 2 minutes throughout the entire class, so i'm sure i'll be the class favorite.

period for the arm

So I had my blood taken today and they put on the tape afterwards on the cotton swatch like usual. And when I get home, I rip off the tape like I always do, but this time it really hurt like a BITCH, and yeah usually ripping tape off hurts but never like this. And so i look down at my arm where the tape was expecting to see a pound of flesh missing, but nothing was there and i was like WTF then. And i look at it again and then little red dots start to appear and I'm like great, I made myself bleed. But it never bled, as in blood dripping down the arm, it just got worse UNDER my skin, now there's this thick red line of blood under my skin where the tape was and it stings, and every now and then it'll feel like I'm being stabbed in my arm. Soo, I'm confused because it's the same tape that they always use and I always rip the tape off, it must be that time of the month for my arm.

4 year

everyone would love if i went to UC Long Beach....I've thought about it, denied. CSULB is 10 minutes from my house.... I would never be free if I went there, and I'm not talking of a rebellious child running from her parents, cuz my parents aren't the problem.

i AM going to apply to UC Santa Cruz, UC Berkeley or UC Santa Barbara, and UC San Diego.

and if i really wanna say fuck the world, I'll apply to University of Seattle and/or Evergreen State College.

(i planned on going to Evergreen when i was in middle school, then i misplaced the notebook i put the information in...only to see the name years later and remember.)

3 schools isn't bad. I'm shooting for UC Santa Cruz though.

reason for her smile

i just realized the mona lisa has no eyebrows.

mona_me

OoooOoooOooo


inkling


Mona Lisa tattoo? We do have a lot in common.


We don't?


Well how the fuck do you know?




..... get it?

fuck cravings

i want chocolate.

monet

my short story

The Plastic Surgeon

I wrote this a while ago, I tried to make it into a short screenplay...yeah, I'm still working on that.

where i must go to finish

variations on a passion

"devil: the personified spirit of evil. an evil spirit; a demon."

I've been called the devil or evil since I was little. I've never taken offense to it, in that people found me to be devilish. I've thought about it, about what makes a person evil and if I was. But I realized even though I have a tough skin; even though I can look at pictures of death & torture without turning my head and listen to a baby crying without flinching; I do not care as easily as others do; even though I am nowhere near the psychological idea of what a female is, I realized that I never gave in to my urges to stab somebody I hated in the neck, watching the blood flow as they slowly died; I never smothered a screaming, obnoxious child; I never swung a metal bat at the head of an annoying friend. Ofcourse I have evil in me, I have a lot of it; but essentially I am good because I never let the evil side take control. It is vain to think some people have no evil in them, it is ignorant.

Part of me wants to stay so others can live better, part of me wants to leave so i can live better, part of me is thinking i'm realizing that those who want me to stay, never thought about my interests...Thinking in abstract really puts things in perspective. I should come with a warning label, with an instruction booklet; before someone becomes my friend i say nothing and hand them the small booklet and watch as they read. I mean yeah....I feel bad, I have a conscious. But... I'm tired of living for others. If I leave and do what I really want to do, there's a big possibility I will never see my friends again or talk to them. There's a possibility I will one day throw my phone in the ocean, I only have 4 phone numbers memorized, 1 I don't know why I would call, the other being someone I don't know if I should be talking to, and the other 2 being my parents. But it would be a nice wake up call, not for me. You take somebody for granted so easy, I should know I've taken plenty for granted. I mean yeah, it's kinda fucked up, but I relish in the fact that someone realizes they've taken me for granted and doesn't have me anymore, boo hoo. I have been through immense pain, so I know I'll be fine, no matter how many tears I cry one day. It's not my fault. I know deep down I've already made my decision, and when it's time, it will play out. My instinct isn't to care; I have to concentrate to make me care about something or somebody's feelings.

"i'm not the devil. i'm the substitute."